L is having a playdate with her friend, A, at the house. They've known each other since they were babies, and are still pretty tight despite not seeing each other very often and going to different schools, etc. Lots of giggles and blaring music. Some shrieking. I'm a bit concerned about the cat.
[5 minutes later: that concern was very justified. I think they traumatized the poor cat for life. Lesson learned, I guess? For me. Probably not for them.]
I'm just tired and dull. It's raining (which is cozy) and the fire is going (which is cozy) and I'm drinking decaf coffee in comfy pants on the couch (cozy). But generally I just feel like someone cut the top off my head off and filled the cavity with concrete, or something. All the past events of my life are running together like watercolors and remember things like names or even saying complete sentences (out loud) are out of reach. Like that one Portlandia sketch. A former parent came through drive-through and I completely misremembered their oldest daughter's name. Same initial sound, wrong follow-through. And it took me until at least 7 hours later to remember that kid's name. And you know what? That kid was important to me. They all were. They all are? It's been 9 years, so I hope I get some grace for that, but still...I feel bad. I remembered the second kid's name! And the parent's name! Doesn't that count for something? *sigh* I know it doesn't.
But point being: retrieval is just really fucking hard right now. Blame it on the PMDD, I guess. And age. And saturation. And stress. And.
Oh, speaking of - how about that thing with the tampons, right? *sighs even more deeply and orders a diva cup* Makes total sense. Totally sucks! And I'm allergic to base metals so I guess we'll see if there are any positive changes from the switch. Of course I'll probably be peri-menopausal before I see any difference. Because I've been using tampons since *checks watch* 1997. Oh, but scientists say it's fine. Well, okay, as fine as anything else, um because we are living in a microplastics/heavy metals sodden/arsenic-soaked world and silicon is derived from rocks so roll the dice, sweetheart. The Earth is all Tim Curry from Fern Gully and It Is In You. *add DivaCup to Target PickUp Order* *be sheepishly relieved when it is not in stock* *backtrack mentally* *consider going by Natural Pantry just for that tomorrow*.
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