Things have been quiet, more or less. I don't get to know whether or not I passed the NBCOT until tomorrow, so in the meantime I'm just...existing. Slowly taking care of getting rid of things in the house that don't fit. Donating them or fobbing them off on the local buy nothing group (which I'll tell anyone who'll listen to me that it's the closest I'm likely to get to socialism in my lifetime - so I'm all about it).
Practical things are not so much happening around the house, however. I'll manage to catch up on laundry for a hot minute or dishes, or organize L's room and then the day will be over. The fence in the backyard hasn't been worked on since last year and now S is working 6-7 days a week, so I don't imagine that's going to happen until August. N hasn't mowed the lawn but twice all summer and is spending the night at my in-laws' house pretty frequently.
L's social calendar has been pretty spotty and I need to do something about that. Maybe a few more playdates this week.
The Al-Anon stuff has been moving slowly but that seems appropriate for the subject matter. One person I was talking to who had done both AA and Al-Anon mentioned that the two are different in the sense that AA is all about being of service to others to the exclusion of almost everything else, and Al-Anon is about identifying what you need. So I do wonder how happy S is going to be about that.
With my therapist last week I identified that I need to be more assertive in communication and communicate specifically that I continue to feel insecure and want reassurance. Or assurance? Either. Both. The trouble, as always, is figuring out what I need to communicate that is true, necessary, kind, etc.
Kind doesn't necessarily mean nice, you know?
Sleepy today. Yesterday was somewhat action-packed and sunny and now today is overcast and somewhat drizzly. We might go swimming tonight. I might go on a run with S. I'm rusty at expressing myself verbally, but more opportunities have come up lately for me to do that. So maybe that'll get better.
