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 Anchorage has been making up for the horrible winter the last week. Sun, 70s, light breeze, a whisper of a thunderstorm here and there. 

S has gone fishing with M, my dad and my father-in-law. Looks beautiful from the pictures, sounds totally stressful, glad I’m here instead - even if we’re dealing with things like no hot water at work, people calling out, and last-minute promos of the devil. 

We’re kind of keeping an eye on my mother-in-law, since she’s been falling/close to falling often. Although I’m mostly just keeping an ear out and trying to keep her from driving so 🤷🏻‍♀️

L and N are playing at the walrus park at the moment. I’m glad they still play together. Even when they fight.

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I’ve been trying to pay a little more attention to my intra-dynamics. The voice in my head that’s more “parenting” myself. What feeds it, when it shows up, what drains it. How much of it do I have per 24 hours? What should I spend it on?

The effort of sustaining attention being SO MUCH. The effort of initiating any type of contradictory opinion being a lot: just never doing it. Even though should.

Tacked on at the end of neurorehab was a lecture about attention. Exciting to learn that I struggle with all types of attention and attention and executive dysfunction.

Insert meme with monkey looking down and sideways here.

I hope it’s pretty where you are. And warm. But not oppressively so.