When in doubt

 go to the library.

...unless the library isn't open until 10:00 and you have to pick up earbuds before you go to the library, and you have to get gas and then your house is on the way anyway. But I should probably study in the Consortium space for Neuro especially, because that's where the tests are gonna be.

S has been being especially nice lately. I don't know if it's just being more engaged with his daughter, or having a different job, or feeling more supported by his family or what. But that's been nice. 

Next week is midterms already. My planner looks like a rainbow barfed on it! And it looks like I'm starting to work on Sundays next week. Just between 5 and 5.5 hours per day worked (and that's looking like usually four days a week). So it's not too bad. I'm still pretty wiped out by the end of the shift though. Like, my brain shuts down after exactly the amount of time I'm supposed to be on shift.

I'm aging but I'm not doing a great job with my skin. There are so many resources now, but my thoughts are generally skipping around, going different places. Away from self care. Away from my skin. I've set an alarm on my phone for 8:00 PM with a cute little yoga emoji and everything but it's hard to stop whatever I'm doing (usually writing or reading something) and shift gears for long enough to DO THE DAMN THING.

Probably I'll need to go back to imagining someone bossing me around. Parenting me. So that I'll do the things I need to do. Ought to do?

Unfortunately most of the professors in Omaha are...kind of similar-looking? So I have hard time differentiating between most (but not all) of the Midwestern women with dark blonde-to-light brown hair.

I've been trying to channel my...loneliness, I guess? Into trying to do one "friend" thing per week. Last week it was calling my brother (went okay! Our lives are different. In ways he doesn't even know about, honestly. I recall a time when we were talking on the phone and I had him on speaker and I was getting ready for a burlesque show. Life is strange.) But maybe this week it's just going to be texting L briefly.

Why the fuck do I feel like this all is like Stardew Valley or something? It really does though. My autism?

Anyway. Today's the first cloudy day in about a week. The sun's been nice and the Fall colors have been brilliant.